im back!

from the pi!
phew! what a trip! it feels like summer has been forever! and i was only there for like what? 2 weeks?

haha i guess you can say that im jetlagged? i dont know.. i slept at 12 and woke up at 5.. is that normal? hahaha.

this year was different. of course i was super excited to finally get away from everything that was happening here in the united states, but at the same time, i was kind of eh for leaving on the first day of summer.. like really now?! i dont know.. theres something about this trip that made it a lot different from the last time i was there. well obviously for the reason i guess.. i went because of a funeral. and best believe it that it was my ver first funeral in my entire life. i didnt know how to act, how to feel. my mom's aunt died. and even though i didnt really establish a rock solid relationship with her.. she took care of my mom when my grandma died. without her, i dont think my mom would be the same person she would be today. i guess that gave me a reason to cry. i remember when i got there, to the province, walking into the house, and seeing the coffin there was already over whelming. tears were already streaming down my face, and for what? it sucked.. really. it made me want to go back in time and try to re establish a nice relationship with her. i love you grandma maria, may you rest in peace <3

Staying in the province was another deal. i met my cousins ( i guess they're my 2nd cousins because they were the kids of my mom's cousin) and they're all little kids, wth the oldest one being 12. they made me realize that life doesnt need to be lived with many nice things. they live in a small house, but they are a HAPPY family. it just hit me and made me realize how much i am blessed with. it was so hard leaving the province, id never think i would emotionally establish an individual relationship with each kid. i miss each and every one of them! :(

OVERALL. the philippines was just a nice way to relax and get away from all the stress. what did i do?
-ice skating, best believe it! they WILL fill their huge malls with random stuff like.. an ice skating rink!
- i got sick - NOT SWINE FLU ! i just got the fever and a cold! ;)
- shopping, i cant believe im saying this, but i dont think i ever wanna shop until school starts. really.
- and of course eating, i think im going to go vegetarian for a while.. no joke.

i miss everyone! and im still in the process of unpacking! hit me up and we'll chill!

<3