peace out

JANUARY :)

wow feb already!? shoooot.. i swear.. this year is going by so quick, by the time you know it, i'll be a licenced driver, take that stupid AP test and the SAT and then it'll be summer :)
i cannnnot wait :)

this week/weekend has been interesting. i noticed that i should really start to pay attention to what goes on in classes instead of daydreaming of shit that never comes true. HAHA seriously right? like in chemistry, i actually understand what goes down, same goes with spanish and so on. but seriously for spanish, i actually like where i sit, and who im situated with in that class, makes it go by so much faster. As for math.. hmm.. trig is pretty damn hard, dont like it at all, and i freaking miss pre calc! but whatever, hopefully, i'll make it through, and hopefully i got an A on that last homework check up ! APUSH, well im kinda feeling better about that class, because the last test i took besides the final, i actually passed with a 79. so i have some coffidence that it'll just be better from here :)
so if i want good grades, ( well better grades, cuhs right now, my grades ARE good ) then that means more paying attention more studying and just more concentration. i can't afford to fuck this semester over like i did the first one. and its so funny because when i look back at my grades, i realize how much better i could do, if i wasnt so damn lazy!

ANYWAYS.
friday was a VERY nice day :) i wish i could have days like that all the time, you know. chill after school with the home fries, go to chipotle and see like.. most of the ayala high school and then walk on over to ra and eat chipotle and laugh and talk crap about people. and then a few minutes later walk around the shoppes and walk into forever 21 trying to find a wf dress but instead get distracted by all these sluty dresses, and then make one of our friends try it on and she screams that she looks like a hooker but then a girl with the same dress comes out of a dressing room. and then a few minutes after that your boyfriend comes, and then you meet his two friends and he stays with you & your friends. he tells you he misses you, and that you smell good. he holds you like he never wants to let go, and then you have all these butterflies in your stomach you are literally at a loss for words.
THAT WAS MY FRIDAY :) jealous? ;)
saturday wasn't that great. well actually i take that back. it was decent for most saturdays. my mom woke me up hella early so i can drive her to seafood city. and instead of taking the side street, like we always do when we're in the walnut/westco area, we take the damn freeway. but thats okay, because i've been on the freeway before, its nothing new :) seafood was fun. watching my mom pick out the perfect type of fish. same goes with vegetables and fruits. and then she walks in and out of ailes to make sure she doesn't forget anything. and then we pay and realize that we spent almost 60 dollars on food. DAMN.
and then my mom decided to buy me breakfast, and then drops me off at school. chill with them poly officers :) and then poly starts and what do you know , mother nature starts to PMS again, because today was so fureaking hot ! : ( i was sweaty ! :( it was grosssssss ! and then after poly, jerald toook me home and i crashed.. literally. woke up and took my mom and my sister to kyr so my sister could sign up for clarinet lessons. then we went to go visit my lolo :) chilled at my lola's for a while, then left to good grocery shopping (again) at food for less. and then my mom took my sister and i to yogurt bar because we were craving some :) so then we came home, i knocked out again and after we went to mass. then my mom decieds to get some mexican food at baja fresh. came home, watched the laker game and now im here doing nothing. and i'm thinking about the things i SHOULD be doing, for example: HOMOWORK.

37-9 ! lakers ftw ! :) too bad bynum has a knee sprain, and it kinda sucks because that knee sprain happened to be his right knee.. the last time he had a knee sprain it was his left, and he was out for a looooong time :( and then to make things so much better, the celtics game is literally around the corner (thursday) can they really hold up without bynum?! we'll see ! :) kobe better not foul his ass out at the last quarter, when the game intensifies 4875934753948574 to the millionth power ! :)

today was also a good day to just catch up on my thoughts. i thought about ____ & ____ and i realized that i lost both of you guys, which kind of sucks because i never intended for anything to happen between me and ____. even though i see ___ once in a while, it still isnt the same. and sometimes i dont understand why we dont even talk. and as for _____ im too scared to just catch up because it might lead to bad terms. and speaking or terms , we left on bad terms, which i STILL want to fix.

okay, wow this was a long blog, have fun reading !

january 31st 11:03 pm
-sick
-cold
-tired
- missing you ! :)

he's back

yeeeeeeeup, he's back :) after a "month and a half without picking up the ball and playing" my baby's back on the court playing :) mattta fack, when they played san anotonio today, and a definite WIN , he scored a good amount points, and this being his first game ever since his release from his knee rehab. its funnny, because i just got done reading his blog, and he is a freaking mac beast ! he owns like 94753948534 mac gadets including a few ipods an itouch , a mac desktop and three macbooks O_O talk about big time ballla! good thing he's out there playing again. only imagine, the celtics game is just around the corner, and with the WHOLE team back together ( whole meaning farmar, walton, and odom) all released from injuries, im anticipating a nice win and an entrance to championships :) BAM!

ANYWAYS.

today is just one of those chill and do nothing days. i think im in the mood for a nap so that later one i can just watch movies and not think about anything school related :) i was watching "Revolutionary Road" and i didn't really get the story, and the ending, but the acting was awesome! but before that, my mom woke me up at 8 and we all went to mass at 9. The mass was lead by bishop barnes today, which he took a nice 45 minutes to have a wonderful sermon. see my sarcasim? ha. it was insane, and the guy next to me, (im pretty sure he was a guy?) had really really really long finger nails, longer than his mothers, and mine! it was pretty.... yeah.. interesting. Getting out wasn't as bad as i thought, the people were nice today and let me go! Gosh i hate when stupid people just cut me off! :(

After mass we came home and i started to clean the house (again). i thought i was going to take a nap when i got home because i was falling asleep through the homily. but i didn't.

Today, i think mother nature is most definitely PMSING today. Woke up, and it was raining, got out of mass, it stopped. During the movie, it was sunny.. and NOW its dark and cold. :( BOOOO for this kind of weather. I like the cold, and its supposed to be raining ! where'd it all go!?

I'm so glad finals are over, gives me time to catch up and finally have my life back. I cant even imagine myself living a life of constant studying, except when at school.

On the note of mother nature, speaking of, i recieved a LOVELY (catch the sarcasm?) present from her :( thanks to her, im probably going to be the big fat bitch in this house... AGAIN. just dont piss me off :)

No school monday, so we'll see how that goes, and i'm super excited to finally having the chance to sleep in and have the house to myself :)

ITS OVER.

puahahahahahaha :) ENJOY.

THANK THE LORD THAT FINALS ARE OVER AND DONE FOR.
now, on the list is to study for the AP test and the fucking SAT which is, literally right around the corner.. i should probably get a head started.
--> but i am super super SUPER happy that finals is over, i anticipate for good hangouts and some memmory makin :) speaking of good hangouts, just got home from bj's with olivia, gwen, alexis, nina, aileen, erum, linda, jenna & CAMILLE :) i miss that girl soo much, and its sad that we dont do anything together and we literally live right across the street from each other :( lucky girl got her license today! i wish i could get mine, or that i had mine already. i think that by now, if i did have my license, a particular relationship wouldn't be in constant need of you know, seeing each other and what not. but thats okay, not seeing people, (hahaha) for a certain amount of time gives me an excuse to overly miss them without seeming like a freak :)
FINALS :
english- peas of cake ! honestly, and she let us use notes to... COMMMMMON.
chem- HARD AS FUCK. i was like...... oh most of them.... -___- who the hell knows what chemical is found in perfume....
spanish- EASY ! :) i think i got at least a B
math- hard as fuck :( i think i failed.. : (
choir - :)
APUSH- fuck that class, why did i even take it?!
so we'll see how bad i did, cuhs im pretty sure now my grades will be going down the toilet.

i realized, now that its the weeking, gotta get cracka lakin on my ANIMAL CROSSING :)
hahahahah i need to catch up and pay my damn mortage already ! shhheeeeeet !

january 23 2009, currently:
-tired
-full
-sleepy
-& of course, missing you :)

two thousand nine

HAS FINALLY COME.

and what a great way to start it with a fight.. UGH WHATEVER : )

hmm.. so i just wanna know, if YOU are reading this.. what the fuck happened to texting me and talking about this shit later? like honestly, i was hoping for some sort of " make up " for the new year, but i guess not huh? i dont know what you keep doing to me, coming back into my dreams.. and i guess its sort of meaningful. lately, i honestly and truly wanna tell you i hate you, straight up. Hate you for doing this to me, even though i know that its way to damn late to fix anything.. but then again, i'm not sure i want to anymore. fuck you, and i hope you had fun just bringing up my hopes for nothing bitch. have a great life.

----> ANYWAYS, on a happier note ! lakers ! hahahahahahah ! freaking heartbreak !
2 losses in a ROW : ( welll you know what !? efff san antonia and orlando ! we know we're good and thats alllll that matters : ) and today while i was watching the commercials before the 3rd quarter i think, i saw numba 5,FARMAR : ) so he's back, practicing and stufff : )
lately, things have been full of surprises, and surprisingly, i fullfilled some of my 09 resolution, mending relationships with certain people, and im happy because i mended more then i wanted :) which is REALLY good.
&& speaking of surprises.... < 333333333333 ! : )

hmmm 3 more months in the counting for my license ! i am SUPER excited.
&&& I ALMOST FORGOT..
school is so blah now, chemistry is WHACK... COME BACK MS HAYNES ! 2nd PERIOD NEEDS YOU !!!!! hahaahaha (;

12:33 am january 17th 2009:
-headache
-soooo in like
-& somewhat stressed.